[Ronan doesn't respond to the sentiment because there's no way he can respond without it being some kind of insult, or coming across like he doesn't believe in their friendship. He does. He just also doesn't quite see how leaving could be anything less than permanent. Even if they came back, even if they visited, part of them- part of this- would always be gone. The knowledge digs uncomfortably at him and he drops it for now.]
You think we'd each get a favor?
[Now there's a question. It's not a question that Ronan has never given thought to of course, but when it's brought up, he never quite knows what to say. Especially recently, when he's come into himself and his connections with Cabeswater. There's no physical thing he could want that Cabeswater wouldn't readily give him- more to the point, he doesn't think he wants anything that Glendower could give.
He knows that magic is real. He knows what he is, what his legacy is, their search has found validation for Ronan in a way that none of them would ever have expected. He doesn't think he needs anything else.
What point is there really, in the end result? For him? He wants it, he supposes, but not with the same burning need that Gansey does. In the end, he wants it because Gansey does, not for any further personal benefit. He's already gotten everything he needs.]
A new cage for Chainsaw. She keeps chipping the bars on hers and it rusts out. Maybe a self-cleaning one.
[It's a joke, obviously, something to lighten the mood. It has occurred to Ronan that he could ask Glendower to wake up the Barns, or to turn Matthew- real. Neither of those desires are things that he wants to just put out there. Besides, he thinks, this is his own burden, his own journey. Asking Glendower for a fix feels like it would be cheating, like it would be... dishonoring the sacrifice, somehow.
It's difficult to explain. He's still doesn't know for sure. But that's not something he really wants to spell out over text.]
[ If Gansey were searching for a deep and meaningful, philosophical answer, this would fall badly short.
The thing is, it doesn't fall short at all. It makes him smile, makes some indiscernible part of himself feel warmer, because that answer is so very Ronan. That's the Ronan who's in this for his friends, who cares about his home and his people and his bird, and who doesn't in the end need more than that.
This is his best friend.
Ronan is so grounded. He balances Gansey more than he will ever know. ]
You know you could probably dream one of those. Self-cleaning, and everything.
Anyway, this is all quite previous. It's not the end yet, Lynch. We still have miles to go before we sleep.
[The fact that Gansey both understood and played along with the brevity makes the corner of his mouth twitch in a smile, despite the earlier unpleasant subject matter. Gansey somehow always knows what to say or how to react, and while he's not always successful in calming Ronan down, this time Ronan can feel his frustration ebb away at the reassurance.
Miles to go.]
Then I guess we should start working a little harder.
[There's a pause- Ronan isn't verbose, not even in text- especially not in text really, and he doesn't express himself in words so much as action, but he does feel some form of gratitude toward Gansey for all of this- the reassurance, the talking-down, everything that he's so good at.
That sort of thing is hard to express when they're just texting. So, after a minute or two, Gansey will get a second response, just a single word-]
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You think we'd each get a favor?
[Now there's a question. It's not a question that Ronan has never given thought to of course, but when it's brought up, he never quite knows what to say. Especially recently, when he's come into himself and his connections with Cabeswater. There's no physical thing he could want that Cabeswater wouldn't readily give him- more to the point, he doesn't think he wants anything that Glendower could give.
He knows that magic is real. He knows what he is, what his legacy is, their search has found validation for Ronan in a way that none of them would ever have expected. He doesn't think he needs anything else.
What point is there really, in the end result? For him? He wants it, he supposes, but not with the same burning need that Gansey does. In the end, he wants it because Gansey does, not for any further personal benefit. He's already gotten everything he needs.]
A new cage for Chainsaw. She keeps chipping the bars on hers and it rusts out. Maybe a self-cleaning one.
[It's a joke, obviously, something to lighten the mood. It has occurred to Ronan that he could ask Glendower to wake up the Barns, or to turn Matthew- real. Neither of those desires are things that he wants to just put out there. Besides, he thinks, this is his own burden, his own journey. Asking Glendower for a fix feels like it would be cheating, like it would be... dishonoring the sacrifice, somehow.
It's difficult to explain. He's still doesn't know for sure. But that's not something he really wants to spell out over text.]
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The thing is, it doesn't fall short at all. It makes him smile, makes some indiscernible part of himself feel warmer, because that answer is so very Ronan. That's the Ronan who's in this for his friends, who cares about his home and his people and his bird, and who doesn't in the end need more than that.
This is his best friend.
Ronan is so grounded. He balances Gansey more than he will ever know. ]
You know you could probably dream one of those. Self-cleaning, and everything.
Anyway, this is all quite previous. It's not the end yet, Lynch. We still have miles to go before we sleep.
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Miles to go.]
Then I guess we should start working a little harder.
[There's a pause- Ronan isn't verbose, not even in text- especially not in text really, and he doesn't express himself in words so much as action, but he does feel some form of gratitude toward Gansey for all of this- the reassurance, the talking-down, everything that he's so good at.
That sort of thing is hard to express when they're just texting. So, after a minute or two, Gansey will get a second response, just a single word-]
Thanks.