[ Yes, Adam does. Gansey sighs. This takes him right back to the summer, when he was still trying to convince Adam to leave home. When Noah told Ronan that the two of them would leave together. This is what he assumes Ronan means now. That Adam is leaving, so of course Gansey will go with him instead of staying with Ronan. That it’s a case of playing favorites, which Gansey refuses to do and which he doesn’t want either of them to force him into.
Jesus, is it even going to matter? Where will he be after Glendower? He can’t even picture himself outside of that moment. He can’t imagine college. How do you retreat to the mundane world after touching the stars? He doesn’t know if he can. Adam’s ambitions are not Gansey’s. ]
I know. I can’t stop him. I don’t want to stop him, he deserves his success.
I don’t know what I’ll do, Ronan, that’s the truth, but I know that home is here. If I could, I’d have all of you with me. I’m not really overfond of change.
[ That’s a laughable understatement, but it’s true. They’ve already changed so much. He’s already lost part of Adam to Cabeswater, and Noah is fading all the time. If none of the rest can be repaired, perhaps that still can. He’s quiet for a moment, tapping the phone against his chin. Then: ]
I want to ask for Noah. When we find Glendower, I want to save him. That’s the only plan I have.
[ He may not need another, after that. The worry gnaws at him, but he pushes it back. ]
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Jesus, is it even going to matter? Where will he be after Glendower? He can’t even picture himself outside of that moment. He can’t imagine college. How do you retreat to the mundane world after touching the stars? He doesn’t know if he can. Adam’s ambitions are not Gansey’s. ]
I know. I can’t stop him. I don’t want to stop him, he deserves his success.
I don’t know what I’ll do, Ronan, that’s the truth, but I know that home is here. If I could, I’d have all of you with me. I’m not really overfond of change.
[ That’s a laughable understatement, but it’s true. They’ve already changed so much. He’s already lost part of Adam to Cabeswater, and Noah is fading all the time. If none of the rest can be repaired, perhaps that still can. He’s quiet for a moment, tapping the phone against his chin. Then: ]
I want to ask for Noah. When we find Glendower, I want to save him. That’s the only plan I have.
[ He may not need another, after that. The worry gnaws at him, but he pushes it back. ]